*sigh*

I've not posted for awhile.
Though...I guess I have no reason to as i'm pretty sure nobody reads my blogs haha.

Thinks have been getting shitter lately.
I know I sound like a boring miserable twat, but i'm not like that in person honest. I'm always laughing and smiling but I just FEEL like shit.
I don't see the point in moping about and making everyone else feel down just cause you are. That's just mean and selfish.

Mam has been in hospital since mothers day. She's meant to be renewing her wedding vows to Dad on Saturday... Yeh cause I can see THAT happening!
She's got to stay in because our oxygen machine at home, only ges up to 5litres of oxygen. She needs atleast 10 to even be able to function really.
But shes adamant (i heard a joke about that once. i'll post it in my next blog ;)
that she'll be well enough, so i'm just going along with it and letting her do what she wants. I can't be arsed to argue.
Me and Gemmar have our 'bridesmaid' dresses, and shoes. And tomorrow, we're getting our nails done all nice. :)
So I guess it'll be nice if it does go ahead. Get our hair and makeup done, get photos and stuff. Yeh, should be nice. :)

I'm becoming increasingly more worried about everything though.

My health is starting to be affected, and i'm actually getting worried now. But i'm too scared to do something about it cause i'm a twat. (Y)
I'm hating 6th form more and more. I got into a photography course at Nuneaton College, but the parents 'know best' and so i'm not allowed to go do it.

Even though...Photography is all i'm good at. And all I want to do.
"You'll fuck your life up if you quit 6th form". Or not?
Whatever. I've given up caring now. I'm just gonna let everyone rule my life. Everytime I think for myself, and have a dream or a goal, it's shot down. By parents, friends, teachers, peers, government. Everyone pretty much. So I can't be arsed anymore.

This world is fucked.